Competition Galore

Competition here, there and everywhere. These days you often hear that in order to be on top you have to competitive. This race to be on the top doesn’t even leave little babies.

The other day my husband and me took our son to The Orange county Zoo. Instead of being a fun experience, it turned out to be quite intimidating. We saw parents of infants, toddlers teaching their kids the ABC’s of animal kingdom.  On the other hand, we were just staring at them and

the amount of information they were showering on these teeny weenies.  

In the infant years of my son, I use to think that I am the best mother our son could have. I was cooking everything from scratch, not showing him any TV, being the soft-spoken person one could be, spending every millisecond with him and etc. etc.

Turns out everybody around me is like that. This realization occurred when I started going to mommy and me clubs etc.  I found out that every mother these days is writing a blog or has a book or a website. Where she writes about her daily ventures with her 3 plus kids.

These mothers are making the healthiest food possible; the most interesting games to develop fine motor skills, coordination etc., and also spending time with their hubbies. 

I tried following their footsteps, but instead of satisfaction I got confused and overwhelmed. Now I am coming to a conclusion that may be all the American moms are like that.  We south East Asian were raised a bit differently than Americans.  We are raising our son just like our parents raised us and we turned out to be good, smart people. But I also think that may be the world is changing at a fastest pace and in order to run the so called race one needs to be teaching kidos everything from the get go.  He needs to know certain things earlier than we were exposed to them.  It is required in today’s fast paced life.

Lets talk about how competition is affecting me. These days I consider myself as a confused person, who doesn’t know which direction to go. I want to be everything from a perfect housewife to an exceptional carrier woman. I have started to believe that in today’s era and with so many options, one can be multi talented person.  I do realize that being perfect in both norms is not possible, but who can stop a fool dreaming inside her paradise. I have yet to experience the harshness of corporate world, which I wish to enter one day. Being a carrier woman that to a successful one is an epitome of perfect women in my eyes.

In order to be a part of this rat race, my husband has made a plan. His points is that I should know the world around me by reading books and then make a decision about what I actually want to do. Dreaming and getting frustrated wouldn’t take me anywhere. I have to do something to gain something. I have to spend 10,000 hours to earn 10,000 dollars.

I could write more and have lots of jumbled up thoughts in my mind, but its kind of difficult to get back in the writing mode after so many years. With continuous writing I will get better both in structured thoughts and vocabulary.